Alexis Donovan (Male): Alexis sits on his bunk, running fingers through his freshly washed hair, powerful legs curled indian style beneath him. The business slacks have been exchanged, after much begging, for a pair of lose sweats and a t-shirt sits beside him on the bed, waiting to be donned.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: Movement outside the door of the cell. The Warder calls out. "Alexis...you have a visitor."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I do?" He sounds so confused, a teen's petulant tone creeping into the warm, masculine timbre of his voice. Curious, he pads to the door...

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: Dream stands there at the door, with Warders. He's dressed in the exact same clothes as he had when they last met...wrestling T-Shirt, old jeans, hiking boots. They're all quite dirty. He's clean. He smiles a little as Lex comes up. "Hey."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Hi," he murmurs, chest tightening as he flicks warm, brown eyes to the Warders. "Can he come in please?"

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: The Warder shakes her head, folding arms over her chest. "Not right now."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: Dream sighs a little, disappointed, but nods, expecting that answer. He moves up to the door, putting a hand against it as he looks in. "How are you, Alexis?"

Alexis Donovan (Male): "All right." He nods, shoulders sagging as he presses his face close to the bars. "Hey..."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I'm...I'm sad." He nods.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "So am I." He takes a deep breath, looking into her face.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: ((His. SO CONFOOSING! *G*))

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Sirius came...He and Angelia made me see." His jaw tightens. "I killed my baby, Dream..."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: His eyes shut, head lowering at the news. The breath is exhales slowly, carrying the weight of a deep sadness with him. "I'm...I'm so sorry, Alexis. I'm sorry I put you in this position."

Alexis Donovan (Male): his throat works, fingers reaching through the bars in the little window, wanting to touch the other's face. "I did it. Not you...I could and should have made you shoot me.'

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He captures his lip between the canines, biting down hard enough to draw some blood. "So, one way or another, I would have been responsible for the death of your child. Only, the other way, I would have killed you, too."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Dream. Look at me, babe..." He sighs and swallows hard, blinking away tears. "I don't blame you. I'm the one still singing his praises even after I watched him skin my father...Even after I was cleansed I still wanted to be with him...that was all me...You saved me. If I'd never gone through this I would never have realized just how sad my life was."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: ((cainines on the left side.))

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He pauses a long moment, then opens his eyes and looking up. Staring at Lex's face, avoiding his gaze.

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Look at me," he says, voice almost commanding, deep and rough with emotion. "We have a chance to make up for what we did. we have a chance to make peace with ourselves and with each other...I want you as my friend. I want to know you. All of you. The demons and the Dreams."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: His eyes snap up, involuntarily, to meet his eyes. His face is haunted, his tooth digging into the lip further. "Alexis...some things, you just can't fix. Some people, I know if I'll ever be able to even ASK for forgiveness for. I don't even deserve to talk to them." He smiles a little, though, a hint of warmth. "Thank you, though. I want to know you, too. There's not many who understand, I think, what we did. Not properly."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Only Sirius might understand," he murmurs. "And no, somethings you can't fix but you have to try. And you have to try and put your life back together. Make right choices no matter how hard they are. I'd like to say turn your back on those urges inside you...the ones that made us both do those cruel, bloody things...But you can't. If you push them away, they clammer and beg at the back of your head until the littlest thing sets them free...Acknowledge them. Use them to your advantage but wisely and with forethought....And I'm sounding like a fucking wiseman here." He snorts and almost smiles.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "Yeah, well, you've had a lot of time to think here, I'd imagine." He smiles a little, sympathy showing in his eyes. In his mind, he should be in a cell himself. "I can relate to that."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "No books, no tv," he murmurs, shuddering hard. "No one to puppy pile with."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "That reminds me. I brought you something." He holds up a copy of Order of the Phoenix. "So you can find out how it ends."

Alexis Donovan (Male): He stares at the book for a long, long minute then glances to Jeremy's face, tears in his expressive eyes...Why were Lex's eyes never that expressive? "Thank you but...I think i need to grow up a little bit..." There's a pause as his throat works and he forces a smirk. "Maybe Dune?"

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: His nose wrinkles a little, a little bit of normalcy returning to his gaze as Lex gets all expressive, and he goes into critic mode. "Dune?" He smiles a little. "Have you read it before?"

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Nope." He bites his lower lip, leaning his cheek back against the bar, eyes on Troy. "Does the Sandman comics though, right?"

Alexis Donovan (Male): ((JEREMY! Dang. *bangs head on desk*))

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "That's where my name came from. I'll bring you Neverwhere, Good Omens, and the Death mini-series's." A smile. "They're comic books, but very non-kid."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Cool." He nods then sighs. "I...I'm afraid to read the book," he admits, glancing towards the one in Dream's hand. "I'm afraid of some of the memories."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "The miniseries's, are, I mean. The other two are books."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "Ahh." He nods, his grip on the book tightening. "I can understand that." He considers. "And reconsidering things, you might not want to know the ending."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "The first dream I ever had with Sirius...I had a...a tattoo on my stomach that said "Voldemort's Whore"...I'm not that girl anymore." There's a pause as he glances down at his chest and flicks the band of his sweats. "Hell...I'm not a girl."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "You know..." His eyes find hers, smiling a little. "I've always been of the opinion, personally, that one's gender does not define who they are. It's their soul that counts." He nods. "And I think the fact that your soul has changed is what's important."

Alexis Donovan (Male): He nods and smiles, pushing a hand through the bars towards Dream. "YEah...How bout yours? You ready to try and really live..."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He shrugs. "I'm workin' on it." A bit of the old, good Dream resurfaces, and he nods. "I've got some help in that department." He reaches up to take Lex by the hand...slowly, so it's obvious he's not passing her anything secretly. "And so do you, now at least."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Thank Gaia," he breathes, leaning forward as he draws Dream's hand towards his face, breath ghosting across the other's skin before he rubs, just barely, his cheek to the fingertips, eyes closing at even this little contact.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He stands there, glad to be providing some kind of comfort to Lex. A smile comes to his face, some of the haunted look receding from his eyes.

Alexis Donovan (Male): He inhales the other's scent deeply, nostril's flaring and straightens, brown eyes meeting Dream's. "Part of me misses...the...misses us. But I don't want that. I just want you to know."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas -> Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: 7,8,9,2,2,3,

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "I'm glad you don't, Alexis. I'm not saying I didn't..." He shuts his mouth a moment, running his tongue over the one upper canine he has. "That I didn't enjoy it. But I did it for horrifically wrong reasons. And I wouldn't have done it in another situation." He's quite aware there's a Warder right there...not that he's being dishonest at all.

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I know. I wasn't fishing," he assures quickly, releasing Dream's hand almost abruptly. "I just am trying to be honest, with myself and everyone else..."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He leaves his hand resting on the sill of the window. "I know what you meant, Alexis. And I appreciate you telling me that. I've been working on the being honest with myself and others, as well." He gets a strange look in his eyes. A little bit of joy, some longing, and...a little fear.

Alexis Donovan (Male): He frowns, head canting to oneside, tongue worrying at a non existant gap in now perfect teeth. "Tell me."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas -> Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: 5,3,2,5,6,4,

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He takes a deep breath, sighing. "I've found someone who's helping me. Someone I can help, too." He smiles gently. "So we are."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "But you're not going to tell me who," he asks, brow arching. "It doesn't matter. I'm happy for you, Dream."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "Thank you." He nods. "And all I'll say at this point is, it's no one from the Sept or the Courts. No one who would break the Litany." Oh, yeah. That Warder's RIGHT nearby.

Alexis Donovan (Male): The brow shoots upwards again and he nods. "A'ight,"he rumbles, scratching at the back of his head. "Granted, I'd hate to meet someone at this point...Cause um. Well." He shrugs.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "Yeah. I assume the Elders haven't figured out how to get it off?"

Alexis Donovan (Male): "No. Sirius made it seem...Sirius said that I AM male. All of me, that its not just like a mask I can't get off."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He frowns. "That's a mighty powerful...fetish." He's a little disturbed, but whether it's over the fact that they're talking about someone's skin as a fetish, or that he's NOT distrubed over it, he doesn't even really know. This is the confusion that is the mind of Dream.

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Yeah and its...confusing. Guys bodies don't act...normal." A pause, mouth working. "Is my dad, handsome? I mean...I've looked in a mirror but its Alexi's face so..."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "Quite, actually."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I'm also old. You notice that," he asks, chuckling deeply. "Forty!"

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He smiles a little bit. "Yeah. Look damn good for forty, though. Wouldn't have pegged you for a day over 35." He winks a little.

Alexis Donovan (Male): He shakes his head, chuckling, one hand scratching over his chest, fingers ruffling the black curls. "So weird. Hot but weird. I have to admit," he says, glancing at the Warder, as if daring her to make a big deal of this. "That I'd like to have real sex with someone like this...Just to see what it feels like."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He smiles a little. "I've never complained, myself. But yeah, again, I can relate. I've wondered in the opposite direction. Just never had the opportunity to find out." He doesn't seem to concerned about the Warder's opinion, either. Sexual preference isn't part of the Litany.

Alexis Donovan (Male): "It hurts," he says. "Even when its good there's a little pain. hell, that's usually when its the best."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "It's..." He pauses, trying to find the words. "I don't know. Not very good at finding words, lately. Sorry." He shrugs a little.

Alexis Donovan (Male): He gives himself a shake and smiles, almost playfully as he eyes Dream. "Wait wait...you like guys."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "I am, as Trevor so... 'politely' referred to it in a dream, a swish. Bisexual."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "He just calls me a bitchcunt most of the time," he says, shrugging. "I'm sorry. I'm just trying to find some sense of normalcy. Some balance. Its harder now because my body responds differently. Kay, so. I'll finish OoTP and then maybe you can bring me something else to read," he asks in an abrupt change of subject.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He shakes his head. "Don't apologize. You didn't say anything wrong." He shrugs, with a smile.

Alexis Donovan (Male): "No. But I wanted to," he admits, eyeing Dream for a moment through those bars as if he could almost taste the other.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas -> Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: 8,6,7,4,3,4,

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He shrugs a little, not offended or upset, though he does chew on his lip a little. "As you yourself said, Alexis. Wisely and with forethought." He nods. "It's okay to feel things. And to want to do things. The choice is ours, now, whether to do them or not." A bit of a smirk follows. "Of course, I'm stable at the moment. Give me enough time, and I'll be scared to death of it soon. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder's a funny thing."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "Scared of those feelings, I mean," he adds.

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I'm sorry," he murmurs, voice thick as he shifts behind the door, thankfull that Dream can't see, just how deep that thought had run. "But you're right. Friendship is going to be...interesting. A challenge."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "It is a challenge." He nods. "It is, believe me. Besides your meaning. People I used to know and trust, I'm scared to death of. The Body. The Elders. Andrew, Joshua...everyone, pretty much. And no matter what they tell me, I can't help but keep thinking that they're going to take me down, put me out of my misery. That they're plotting against me, behind the smiles." His eyes shut, cheek twitching a little. "We just have to beat that. And we have a lot to make up for, Alexis. I still don't know that everyone will forgive us, and that scares me."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "YOu shouldn't worry, Dream." He sighs. "I'm still not sure I'll be leaving here." Alexis shrugs slowly. "I drove them all away before this. This was just the knife turning in their guts. Josh, if he's heard what I said, will kill me without asking."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods a little, head tilting downward, eyes still shut. "Have you been told when the Elders will decide upon you yet?"

Alexis Donovan (Male): "No." He pauses for a long moment. "Dream? When you see, Laidan will you tell her that I'm sorry. That I'm more sorry then she'll ever know. That I love her."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: The lip goes back under the canines again, and gets pinched between them. "Yeah, Alexis, I will. I..." He sighs. "I don't know...what she'll say to that. It...may not help how she feels about you, however that is, and it may even make things worse. But if you want me to, I'll do it."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "Not if she's hurting that bad...Not if she's that torn, no. If she's that torn then just let her forgeta bout me."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "Is she hurting?" He nods. "No doubt about it, Alexis. But what you have to realize is this. If you get out of here, and I hope to the Goddess you do, you will have to face her at some point if you plan on staying here in New York." He swallows hard. "I'll have face some people too."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I know. I do. But I can't ever have with her what we had and I accept that. But part of me had hoped...Part of me had hoped that we'd be friends." He exhales shakily and pushes a hand through his hair. "Some of the stuff, that you grabbed from the house, the baby stuff...There were a couple books in braille for Lai to read to our daughter."

Alexis Donovan (Male): ((mine, thankyou))

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "I know, Alexis," he says, looking down and scratching the back of his neck, ruefully. "I searched all of the bags the night we got to the cabin, to make sure there was nothing in them that could be used to track to us."

Alexis Donovan (Male): He makes a soft sound, pressing his head into the doorjam. "My poor baby..."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He steps forward, putting a hand on one of the bars, to try and be there for her as best he can with thick oak between them. "Goddess, Lex..." His eyes shut againm shaking his head slightly.

Alexis Donovan (Male): His shoulders shake, face rolling until his forehead touches Dream's hand. Strong arms wrap tight around the lean abdomen as he begins to sob.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas -> Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: 9,10,3,7,6,8,

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He can't offer much in the way of physical touch for comfort, but he does what he can, brushing his fingertips over Lex's forehead. He forces himself to stay calm, even as he threatens to fold up in guilt, and instead leans his templ against the side of the window edge where he can look at Lex. "I know, Lex. I know..."

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I wanted her," he keens, body rocking. "I wanted her so bad...Josh painted the second bedroom. I bought a crib," he whispers.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "I wish you could have had her, hon." His voice resonates with his empathy for this person, across the door from him, who's been so hurt by so many, him included.

Alexis Donovan (Male): "I made the choice," he whispers. "I chose to go after Angelia. To get Trevor...But i wanted my baby so bad..."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas -> Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: 10,3,2,2,7,9,

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He's quiet for a long, long moment, before finally speaking in a low tone. "Alexis, Karlos told me something. I want you to listen to me, very carefully." He swallows hard.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "What we did...it...wasn't our choice. It may have felt like our choice. It may even have come from our motivations somewhat. But every choice that was made...it was the Doctor's." ((Rolling Cha+Subterfuge, since his mind believes the words, but he hasn't accepted them yet.))

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: 8,6,7,9,9,1,4,

Alexis Donovan: Lex's sobs quiet and he sighs, sagging against the heavy door. "You really believe that?"

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He purses his lips and sighs. "Karlos knew him better then either of us, Alexis. He knew what the man was capable of. What the...algorithm did. He was under it's effects too. I think, when it comes to knowing how it affected us, he'd be better prepared to know then we would.

Alexis Donovan: "Maybe. Sometimes I think Karlos says whatever it is that a person needs to hear to feel better. Sirius made it very clear that they were my choices and my actions." He winces, shifting a bit. "Very clear."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He shakes his head. "He's not always right. I want to believe it was my actions, Alexis. I really do. It would mean, at least, that I could take the blame for what I did, be punished--probably put to death--and that would be it. I wouldn't have to deal with it anymore. It would mean I was strong enough to be in control. But Karlos's words..." He trails off, quiet for a moment.

Alexis Donovan: "Taking the blame, shouldering it hon...Its not an end to any of it. maybe not even a beginning. Its just the way it has to be. If I push off the blame, i'll go right back to being who I was," he murmurs, reaching through the bars as if he'd touch Dream's cheek. "But if I shoulder the blame that's rightfully mine then I have something to remind me of just how far I've fallen."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "Just don't forget that you can climb back up." He looks up at the bars, into Lex's face. "You can, and you will."

Alexis Donovan: "I'm trying, Dream. I really am."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He reaches out and takes the other man by the hand again. "And you'll succeed. It won't be easy, but Goddess willing, I'll help you. Every step of the fucking way."

Alexis Donovan: "I'm glad." He smiles softly, free hand scratching over his stubbled jaw as his other hand clenches tight to Dream's. "I'll try and do the same for you, babe."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He smiles, warmth and kinship coming to his face. "Thanks. Maybe we'll pull through this nightmare after all." He flinches a little at his own words.

Alexis Donovan: "No maybe. No try. We just will." He nods. "Wish I could hug ya. I need a hug. Hell, I need a fuckin puppy pile."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He smiles a little. "Soon, Lex. Soon, we'll be able to. Just hang in there, okay? Don't you dare give up. I'm gonna come here, every day I'm allowed to. You won't go through this alone. I promise."

Alexis Donovan: "Thanks. Warder's not much company and the other's don't talk to me...I've been driven to chasing my tail," he says, chuckling. "You're like my sanity right now."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "I'll do what I can." He smirks a little. "Granted there's not much up here to lend, but I'm getting donations myself, so I think I can spare a little."

Alexis Donovan: "I owe you."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "No, Alexis." He shakes his head. "You don't owe me anything. I owe you, more then I can ever repay. And even if you disregard that, then consider it an act of love for a friend...one who understands what you're going through."

Alexis Donovan: He nods sharply and gives Dream's hand a tight squeeze. "Deal amigo." There's a pause. "Love you too. and we will get through this."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "Yeah, we will. We." He smiles a little, returning the squeeze.

Alexis Donovan: "Just...be realistic. I could still be put down,' he murmurs, trying not to bum Jer out but needing him to be clear on that.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "I know. Hell, so could I. By my own account, I violated 9 out of 13 parts of the Litany, Alexis. You don't get a slap on the wrist for that, typically."

Alexis Donovan: "True, you don't...but you're out there and I'm in here."

Alexis Donovan: "I think that speaks volumes."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He shrugs that off. "That's because I wasn't going to run. Only difference, and a negligable one, at that. Doesn't make me any more innocent then you. Just arguably a little saner at the time, and for entirely understandable reasons, too."

Alexis Donovan: "Point," he rumbles, running fingers through his hair.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "My debating skills have been put into practice recently." His eye twitches a little at that, but he moves on. "Let's try to be optimists while being realists, okay? We will make it out. Though that's not a surety, we'll do what we can to make it one."

Alexis Donovan: "A'ight man. I'll try and if you ever need someone to...pound...optimism back into you you know where to look," he murmurs, offering up a wicked smirk...Just in an attempt to make Dream smile.

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: It does bring a slight grin to his face. "Believe me, there's no shortage of options outside this castle for that...both to pound optimism into me or just to beat me senseless. But I'll put you up near #1 on the list, Alexis."

Alexis Donovan: "You better. Long as I'm stuck in it I plan on seeing just what this body can do."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: His grin quirks a little bit, and he nods. "Sounds like a plan to me."

Alexis Donovan: He smiles, chuckling warmly, eyes flicking to the Warder and back to Jer, brows twitching. "Good."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "Besides the Litany breaking stuff, of course." He smiles some, amused. "'cause, you know, that's bad, and all."

Alexis Donovan: "Oh, well, yeah. No mating."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He chuckles a bit, shaking his head. "We'll have to see how the Elders deal with the current situation to see how strict that is here." ((Since this scene takes place before the post deep made in the Forums.))

Alexis Donovan: He nods. "I have to be honest," he says, glancing at the Warder, "that if there can be no children I don't consider it mating. Which isn't to say that I'm not going to abide by the Septs decisions regarding that."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "I feel the same way you do. Child of Gaia, after all. 'course, if the Sept says a thing is so, I'm not going to cross that decision."

Alexis Donovan: ((*reads and falls over laughing*)) He nods. "My mom was Gaian. My father, I'm guessing you and Sirius maybe have a better clue then me. And well, the walkers that I packed with didn't much care."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "Personally, I've always been a bit of a loner, myself. Left my mentor's pack in Portland, and only thing close to a pack I found since was the Body of Harmony. Look at how well THAT worked out." He sighs. "Still, I'm hoping to change all that, soon."

Alexis Donovan: "I was taken by the Walkers when I was sixteen but despite my mad skillz I don't really belong there. Not sure I belong with the Lords either. i'm hoping Sirius can help me figure it out. Or at least help me focus enough to figure it out myself."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He nods. "Yeah." His eyes meet hers. "There's a place for you, Alexis. And we'll find it."

Alexis Donovan: He nods, brown eyes gazing whistfully into Dream's. "Thanks, man. You should go before they start to think that there's more going on 'tween us then there really is."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He smiles a little at that. "Yeah, okay. I'll be back tomorrow, though. Unless you're going to be busy, that is..." He grins.

Alexis Donovan: "Depends, you catch me right when I wake up and damn straight i'll be busy," he says, laughing with a wicked light in his eyes. "And if you come back in like five minutes I'll probably be busy."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: He chuckles, shaking his head. "You're incorrigible, Alexis. All right. Stay strong. I'll see you later."

Alexis Donovan: "Gotta do something to kill time, Dream." He shrugs languidly and nods. "A'ight, bro. Go with Gaia."

Jeremy "Dream" Thomas: "You too." He hands the boof off to the Warder, and gives Lex a last smile before heading off.

Alexis Donovan: He watches Dream's back for a long second then nods to the Warder. "Thanks, Rhya,' he murmurs before padding to his bunk to sleep.